the altitude chamber training

mood: feverish
music: sandstorm, darude

since i missed the one yesterday, i had to make up another one today. i woke up at five and tried to find the flight suit from my roommate's closet (cause i don't get mine yet). unfortunately, i couldn't find it. i think he probably sent it to laundry. fuck!! what should i do? i have only 10 mins to be at the mitchell hall (our dinning hall). i ran out down the hallway to get ryan's. then i ran to another hallway to drop my laundry stuffs before heading to mitchell. finnally, i could make it..

we left the academy at 5:40 and arrived peterson afb around 6:30. this was my second time to come here. my first time was during the basic. we came here to see some planes such as f-16s, f-15s, c-5, c-17, a-10s. i really liked it and it’s also the first time we left the academy. we had a briefing about the altitude chamber, symptoms from hypoxia, and how to react them. until 12 o’clock, we started the chamber training. i was a little bit nervous because during the briefing, the instructors showed us some vdo clips of people losing their conscious...i don’t wanna be like “that guy.” in the chamber, there were two rows of eight seats facing to the middle. we put on our helmets and masks...so cool, looked like pilots. they trained us at different altitudes, by decreasing the pressure inside the chamber. the training was about an hour. i struggled a few times. it’s kinda hard to breathe at some conditions. however, our group of sixteen passed the training. then we left for lunch so that another group could have training.

during the way back to the academy, i was surprised again when snow started falling from the sky.. what the hell? it’s 29th of april. it should be warm enough to wearshorts? i love colorado lol

a foggy day

mood: so so - a little bit happy
music: the night that the lights went out in nyc, the ataris

today, i was supposed to start the day with the altitude chamber. unfortunately, i didnn't wake up. it's too early, 5.00 am. then i spent time at the academy without doing anything today.

there is a lot of fog today. since i woke up and went out for lunch (we had a formation today). we marched among the fog, such my new experience. the temperature for today is quite low for "spring" it's like 35-37 during the day. hurrrr...i don't know why this place is so cold and so longggggg. some of my friends living in the east coast said they could wear shorts and t-shirts outside, but not here.. -_-" this is not fair. the first snow started in late september (i believe it's the first place to have snow) and it's kept being cold until now...

i'm looking outside the window. i can see only fog... white. light. the coldness is sneaking into my room. it might be good if i could fly among it. i used to think, many times, what it would be if i could fly. i have a dream, since i was very young that one day, i would fly by myself. everytime i hear a plane flying on the sky, i always look at it, look at how beautiful it is..to fly, until it disappears from my sight.

three more years...the time i have been waiting for, so long... i will know if my dream could come true...or just only a dream

go to bed!!

mood: zzzz
music: canon in d, pachabel

tomorrow is going to be my tough day. i'll have an altitude chamber training. it's a place to train us to feel hypoxia which we might encounter when we have to fly in high altitude. i'm so excited. we'll see what it's gonna be...gotta go to bed. zzzzzzzz

yourself

mood: self thought
music: why worry, the all-american rejects

sometimes, it's hard to describe.
what we are feeling.
to others.
no one would understand.
what we are feeling.
and it seemed like.
no one is trying to understand.

being.
forlon. depressed. wistful.
blissful. ecstatic. delighted.
no one. no one.
individual is the best person to perceive.
sympathize. sooth. console.
himself.

today

mood: tired
music: dammit, blink 182

today, april 14, i started my day with a gr (this is what we call an exam here). i woke up at 5:15. dozily stretched myself. then put on my uniform before heading to the bathroom to wash my face. i went to bed kinda late last night because i had to study for the test, com sci, which i had never done the homework or paid my attention to the class. i came back and studied from an old test for awhile then i left my room to have a breakfast. the weather was not that bad today. like usual, cold and windy. i grasped two bananas and some serials just to sustain my starving stomach. the gr started at 6:30 and lasted 50 mins. i am glad i did study from the old test 'cause they were similar. hopefully, i got from it. after the gr, i came back to my room, took a nap for a half an hour then went to class at 9:30. my classes finished at lunch today since my afternoon pe class was over two months ago. i came back, took another nap to recover myself. i didn't go to a rugby practice today because i had to attain an international dinner at 5. there were a lot of cadets from different countries. i could meet my best friend from thailand again. i have never met him after i left the academy. the party took about three hours. we came back to dorms. we planned to go out tonight, but unfortunately, i had an online homework due at 11. but that;s ok.there are two days left before he leaves here.zzzz.zzz.zz.z..i'm so sleepy right now. gotta go to bed. good night

l e t 's l o v e

mood: rejuvenated
music: kiss me, sixpence none the richer

to have somebody to love....is like....
to fulfill the emptiness...in our lives

have you every thought of...
...how ants love...?
....where birds fly to...?

how many days... hours... minutes... have passed by,
we always spend them for what is nearby,
without looking forward to what is beyond,
...that makes us painful


wouldn't it be nice?
if we spare a little time... a short moment,
to think about... "love"...

we might see what we have overlooked
and the world might be more...beautiful


as translated from www.uptogu.com

i loved "snack"

mood: gloomy :(
music: tears in heaven, eric clapton



:what time is it?
:3:22 am.
:why don't i go to bed?
:i don't know. i don't know what i'm doing and what it's for. i'm confused. i need to write something.
:umm..
:....i don't know why i'm kinnda sad right now??
:am i changing?
:i don't know. from what i used to be, woke up, said hi to "snack", thought of "snack," every other time. but from now on..., no more..."snack"
:sometimes, there comes points where things end. like Buddha said;"stability is unstablillity. "but it depends on each person to decide how it ended.
:am i right?
:yes, i am. i think i did the best that i could do. even though i don't want to , but i have to...to do.
:do what?
:what i though it should be done.
:umm.. why?
:because it would make everything better...i think so.
:good. this's just the 2nd week.
:but why am i sad?
:ask myself.
:i love "snack." only me and me. very much. like never done before.
:was it my first time?
:nope. second.
:umm. i should've learned something.
:i understood. i can love "me" instead.
:that's good.
:it's getting better. believe me.
:i do.
:So??
:i'll look for the future. on the wide blue sky, me, me, and my "wings," we'll fly, roll, and soar, together. high, higher,highest...
:good.
:now?
:do what i should do, without "snack."
:yup, i'll. i'll fly. make my dream comes true.
:but first thing.
:what??
:i should go to bed...
:good idea...night
:night ****