i loved "snack"

mood: gloomy :(
music: tears in heaven, eric clapton



:what time is it?
:3:22 am.
:why don't i go to bed?
:i don't know. i don't know what i'm doing and what it's for. i'm confused. i need to write something.
:umm..
:....i don't know why i'm kinnda sad right now??
:am i changing?
:i don't know. from what i used to be, woke up, said hi to "snack", thought of "snack," every other time. but from now on..., no more..."snack"
:sometimes, there comes points where things end. like Buddha said;"stability is unstablillity. "but it depends on each person to decide how it ended.
:am i right?
:yes, i am. i think i did the best that i could do. even though i don't want to , but i have to...to do.
:do what?
:what i though it should be done.
:umm.. why?
:because it would make everything better...i think so.
:good. this's just the 2nd week.
:but why am i sad?
:ask myself.
:i love "snack." only me and me. very much. like never done before.
:was it my first time?
:nope. second.
:umm. i should've learned something.
:i understood. i can love "me" instead.
:that's good.
:it's getting better. believe me.
:i do.
:So??
:i'll look for the future. on the wide blue sky, me, me, and my "wings," we'll fly, roll, and soar, together. high, higher,highest...
:good.
:now?
:do what i should do, without "snack."
:yup, i'll. i'll fly. make my dream comes true.
:but first thing.
:what??
:i should go to bed...
:good idea...night
:night ****